pretend

is it really?

oh damn.

survey- 51

1. Were you smiling when you woke up this morning?
- wish i were.

2. When was the last time you met someone new?
- um. i dont know.

3. What is irritating you right now?
- WHERE ARE YOU??

4. When did you last eat pizza?
- last week i think

5. Who is the last person you held hands with?
- i love you

6. How many text messages are in your inbox?
- just a few.

7. What does the sixth message in your inbox say?
- "Yup! Good night honey! I love you 'til the end"

8. Have you ever kissed ANYONE named Matthew?
- nope.

9. Besides your bed, what is your favorite thing in your room?
- kipp. amber. piz.

10. Who is in the room with you?
- my sister.

11. What makes you happy?
- for now just an email would do please

12. What are you wearing on your feet?
- flats.

13. What is/are your favorite pair of shoes?
- those chucks.

14. When was the last time you cried?
- wow this is fun

15. Who was the last person you told you loved them?
- and i miss you

16. Do you get along with your parents?
- pwede na.

17. What were you doing before this?
- checking my mail.

18. Do you miss someone?
- HELL YEAH.

19. What instant messaging service do you use?
- ym. chikka.

20. What are you going to do after this?
- do my rituals.


21. What would you prefer loose or fitting clothes?
- depends. i could like both.

22. What do you wear more, jeans or sweatpants?
- jeans.

23. Does anyone like you?
- i sure hope so.

24. Define ugly?
- IKAW.

25. When did you last buy a pair of pants?
- summer pa.

26. When did you last take a picture alone?
- i forgot.

27. Where's your favorite place to be?
- anywhere with my wookie

28. Where did you last sleep?
- in my bed?

29. Who was the last person/s you had quality time with?
- i want you back

30. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
- tiende

31. Coach purse or NFL tickets?
- nfl tickets

32. Where was your default picture taken?
- which one?

33. What is your fave scent?
- mine.

34. Why did you kiss the person you last kissed?
- oh wow. gee i dont know, maybe because i love that person?

35. Are you happy with where you are?
- gotta be contented. see, i dont have any choice.

36. Rose: Are you the flower or the thorn?
- the roots.

37. Do you miss any of your exes?
- no.

38. Who did you last hang out with?
- nina.

39. Plans for today?
- the usual stuff.

40. Do you think you're hot?
- does it matter?

41. Describe your dream car?
- i dont have one. i just want a car.

42. Can you roll your tongue?
- yup.

43. Where do you want to live?
- anywhere with my wookie

44. what's the color of the shirt youre wearing?
- white and green

45. Do you like candles?
- uh, okay lang.

46. Why do some surveys always have missing questions?
- because it's reality.

47. Do you sleep?
- not anymore

48. Is there someone on your mind that shouldn't be?
- nope.

49. Do you go on dates with strangers?
- no

50. Do you think you're desirable?
- uh

51. What do you think of the person you got this from?
- she's okay

survey- who what where when

The Who’s

Who Was The Last Person You Talked To? -manang.

Personally? -bah humbug.

Who Was The Last Person You Were With, Besides Family? -nina. school.

Who Was Your Last Kiss? -oh god.

Who Knows The Most About You? -my sister.

Who Is Your Favorite Band, Rapper, Singer, etc.? - too many to mention.

Who Can Make You Laugh No Matter What? - my wookie.

Who Can You Always Count On? -hon.

Who Has Your Heart? - my one and only future.

Who Is or Was Your Favorite Teacher In School? - wala.

Who Is Your Crush? -logan echolls.

Who Is Your Best Friend(s)? - erin rae koko.

Who Loves You? - i'm sure He does.

The What’s

What Is Your Favorite Song At The Moment? -What Hurts The Most. Hellyeah.

What Are You Looking Forward To? -the end of the year. and the next one. and the next one..

What Is Your Favorite Color? - purple.

What Website Do You Visit Most? -yahoo.

What Is Your Favorite Smell? - my wookie's.

What Is Your Favorite Lil Wayne? -hm?

What Is Your Favorite Movie? -patch adams.

What Is Your Favorite Season? -christmas. or so i think.

What Makes You Mad? - stuff.

What Curse Word Do You Use Alot? - pucha at the moment. sorry babe

What Kind Of Phone Do You Have? -the coolest ever.

What Was The Last Song You Listened To?- all star.

The When’s

When Was The Last Time You Went To The Mall? -last week.. err..

When Did You Talk To Your Crush Last? -never did.

When Do or Did You Graduate? - oh that's a good one. i'm not sure..

When Is The Next Time You’ll Do Something Fun? -oho. this one's better.

When Was The Last Time You Ate or Drank Something? -fifteen minutes ago.

When Is Your Birthday? -november one.

When Was The Last Time You Went To The Movies? -last week. mummy. boring movie. fun moment. err..

When Is Your Parents Birthday? december two may twenty-nine

When Was Your First Kiss? -i forgot.

When Were You In The Car Last? -oh shit. sunday......

When Will You Be 21? - ten years pa

When Will You Be Taking Your Next Vacation? -beats me.

The Where’s

Where Do You Live? -in my house.

Where Is The Best Place To Be? -beside my wookie.

Where Was Your Last Vacation? - vigan..

Where Were You Born? -manila.

Where Is Your Best Friend? -school probably.

Where Do You Want To Live? -anywhere with my wookie.

Where Was The Last Place Your Were Besides Your Own House? - school.

Where Do You Think You’ll Be In 10 Years? -in my wookie's arms. DO YOU GET THAT?

Where Is Your Cell Phone? -i dont know. somewhere.

Where Are Your Parents? -at work.

Where Was Your Display Picture Taken? -which one?

Where Were You 24 Hours Ago? -in hell.

on the tenth day of the eighth month of this year..

..I ALMOST DIED.

How fast time flies... sure damn fast, i say. Time will never be on anyone's side yet it heals any pain. How ironic. Or not. I must say, i have never been a fan of time. It always pained me to watch a clock do it's work. It's making me far from what's been and nearer to what will be. Most of the time, it made me crazy. Like hell. The topmost would be from 7 in the evening yesterday til 4 in the morning today..

It hurts so much because it's all fresh in my memory.. every damn second seems to be pushing itself on me everytime i think of it. Especially the last ones...... who knew that time could crush a heart. I'm thinking of an easy way to tell the story, but there's none. Every angle of it kills. It hurts to see the person you love the most walk away from you, knowing that he loves you. I had so much to say but i didn't say anything. Well i did, he just didn't hear it. Doesn't matter anyway. He's gone.

I don't really want to remember that day. I have never been more hurt. Oh i've been left many times before and they all hurt too... but not like this. Maybe it hurts this much because he knew that i'm scared of being left again yet he did. I'm not mad, he did what's best for him. And he deserves this. But i just want it to stop... the pain to stop. I DON'T WANT TO BE LEFT AGAIN.

I miss him badly. And i know that i'll love him more because i risked being left again for him. I love him. He loves me. Just... just not enough to stay with me.