life's like an hourglass glued to the table

life's like an hourglass glued to the table

Friday, November 9, 2007

What A Blink of an Eye Misses.


"Change isn't easy. Changing the way you live means changing how you think. Changing how you think means changing what you believe about life. That's hard. When we make our own misery, we sometimes cling to it even when we want so bad to change, because the misery is something we know. The misery is comfortable."


"Change.. we don't like it; we fear it. But we can't stop it from coming. We either adapt to change, or we get left behind.
It hurts to grow.. anybody who tells you it doesn't is lying. But here's the truth: sometimes, the more things change, the more they stay the same. And sometimes change is good. Sometimes.. change is everything."




"It's also true that sometimes-- not often, but once in a moment of grace, almost a
sort of a miracle. Something so powerful can happen, someone special come along, some precious understanding descend on you so unexpectedly that it just pivots you in a new direction; changes you forever." It's hard yeah, but it's still possible. No matter how you try to not change, it will always come your way. It's necessary most of the times and is pretty much normal. Change is needed to adapt to the surroundings, which also change. Our world improves as it receives a new information everyday. Everything around us change. Every single hour, minute, and second.. every little thing. I once feared change.. there was a point where I even challenged God. I had my own beliefs and I wanted to keep them and to somehow prove to God that it's possible not to change. But now, I got a full 360 degree turn lads. ;) And I realized that I really needed to change every once in a while.. more like, improve. Still hard, siyempre naman noh.. when you enter a new realm talaga. But, that's life. It's always for the better.. always for the better . :)

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

I lust you. xoxo. I lust you too.

A friend once wrote to me:

"True love remains pure. Eventually, you will have problems in your relationship with your boyfriend if you're thoughts or actions are impure. If your relationship is based on lust instead of love, it's bound to fail. Lust can damage even the truest love and corrupt even the closest soulmates. If you really want a wonderful relationship with your boyfriend, you will have a pure relationship with him.


Lust, at its very heart, is self-centered. Yet love is other-centered. Love is patient, love is kind; it is not self-seeking. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.


How can you really love someone if you're focused on meeting your own desires? Now, that sounds pretty good. But is it really true? Let me give you some examples on why lust corrupts true love. First of all, if you are lusting after your boyfriend, you are really wanting to use him for your own benefit. Eventually he is going to get sick of that. If you continue, the pattern of lusting after him to fulfill your own needs and wishes, he's going to resent you instead. Nobody likes being used. Nobody likes being controlled and manipulated. And you can guarantee that your bf will hate it too. Second of all, if you are trying to love your boyfriend by meeting his demands for physical contact, you are really just feeding his lust. I will be so bold to guess that 100% of guys striggle with lust, some more than others. When you hug your bf, you may be thinking, "Oh, what a sweetie!". But he's thinking, "What a hot body!". The tiniest of things can send a whole guy's body flaming with lust, and the girl has no idea. That's why, even if you don't struggle with lust, you should be really careful.


You may think, "My bf wants to kiss me because he loves me". That may be true. People who are in-love want to express that love in physical ways. But you'll be able to tell if he really loves you if he wwants to keep your relationship pure more than he wants to kiss you. REAL love wants the best for the other person."



Lust, lust, lust. So much for the word LUST eh? Hahaha. When I first read this, I was like, "Grabe, how many more lusts can this can get pa?" Kung di pa kayo nagsawa sa lustlustlust na yan, ewan ko na. Haha. But anyway, it is a good piece of words. Very nice.




Oh, this wasn't an advice ha? I wasn't having the lustcapades back then. My friend just wanted to let me know these. So there you go. Thanks friend! :)



You see, somtimes crashing makes you feel a whole lot better..





It's a mad life we all know. Ease the moment. Surrender the crown.

You can put it in a literal way, or not. Whichever way, I think it rocks. Well at least for a certain time in your life, it does. See, there are times when suddenly everything seems to be crashing down on you and you have no idea why. You’re simply living up to your day, trying to end it as normal as possible. But all of sudden, there it is, a great big downpour. And you really have no choice at all; no way out. It’s as if those sad stuff lost their way and ended up on you. Yeah, you can consider it as an emotional spill that you made a big deal out of; but it’s really not.

It’s another way of saying, “My strawberry ice cream melted crazily when I was skating in the middle of a 10 degree rink”. If you’re in a normal state of mind, you’ll get all frustrated and buy a new one; or forget about your ice cream and just enjoy skating. But you’re not. You stand there in the middle of the rink, saddened by your ice cream. And unfortunately, you start to notice the very cold temperature, the uneven coating, your wasted money, and the fact that you are all alone, skating. And what do you do? You try to relax, TRY, and leave the rink. Instead of going home or somewhere usual, you go somewhere new. Instead of sharing your sadness to the usual, you take it all in. Instead of carrying on with your day, you start a new one. And instead of helping yourself up, you CRASH.

And as I have said, you can take it literally or not. It doesn’t matter. Cos when you crash, nothing really matters. At least for you. The whole world can take all the perspectives that they can get, no one can ever understand you at that particular moment. No one except the wall: whoever, whatever, wherever you crashed on. IT will understand.

Crashing, actually, in some insights, is bad. But, in the instances that I am talking about, it is not even close to that. It is the bestest act you can do. Anything can happen from the time you are beginning to crash, until whenever. And the thing is, you cannot predict anything. You can’t see how your time will pass. Even the slightest predictions are very vague. Nonetheless, your time will be memorable. Hell yeah.

Don’t try to crash. This is not an advice. Don’t try to NOT crash even. Just live. Whatever. When the time comes, just enjoy. Enjoy it in a different way, if possible. And the most important thing: Never regret.





+ greetings from the flow state opaline + how to save a life + light grenades + gutterflower +

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don't go on
looking for the love
in the illusion of it all
the answers in the dream
cause I have been through mire and confusion
I am free
as far as I can see

is Nashville skyline
underneath it all
you yourself are free

14 hours ago
I was living in a dream
I was living for the scene
I was floating high above
cause I have been through mire and confusion
I am free

floating high above
and underneath it all
yourself are free
you yourself are
forevermore is the love that you need to believe
and you yourself are there
floating high above
the Nashville skyline

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I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Just say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
Find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves

And everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Everyone knows
She's on your mind
Everyone knows I'm in over my head
I'm in over my head
I'm in over...

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Meet me here
On November 11th, come alone
In your mind
As were wrapped in your hours
We watch these stars shine

ONE!
MORE!
TIME!
Kiss me for the sky above
Out
From
This cloud we are living on
To send us off

A kiss to send us off

Kill your doubts
With the coldest of weapons
Confidence
No more words, OOooooooooo
Just the sound of the splendour

ONE!
MORE!
TIME!

Kiss me for the sky above
Out
From
This cloud we are living on
To send us off

A kiss to send us off

Here I am, there you are
On a wire connecting our eyes
Theres a string, and it's tied, to a kite
Theres a storm, in the sky
Now the clouds become electric
Here I am, there you are Collide!

A kiss to send us off

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When you're all wrong in the back of your mind again
How does it feel?
When you drop down everything's all the same
Saccharine caffeine nicotine gum
Yeah it tastes sweet but it's not for long
And I just think youtouhgt it would be
When you're looking for truth on the cover of a magazie
How does it feel?
When you find out what you're not gonna be
They give you your image and the things you believe
Open your eyes tell me what did you see
And I just think you thought it surreal

How does it feel when you're out on your own
And now it's too late to come home
And it's hard to be free when you're down on your knees
Take it easy till you make it alone
Now you're a supermarket punk rock television comedy
Out on the scene
Yeah I bit down now there's no hand to feed
And all the beautiful images lining your wall
Pop radio screaming down the halls
Now you think you found something real
When it's all about money and the things that you need
Live a big lie and they all believe
Now I just find that somehow obscene


How does it feel when you're out on your own
And now it's too late to come home
And it's hard to be free when you're down on your knees
Take it easy till you make it alone
Take it easy till you make it alone
What a scene
Yeah
When it's been said before
And all been done
Take it easy till you make it alone

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Saint me, saint me.

WOW. This is like my fourth site.. I have one in Friendster and two in Multiply. I think I have another one, I just don't remember. Bah. Don't get me wrong.. I'm not one of those internet huggers or computer addicts. Maybe I just cant be contented with those sites of mine.. or maybe not.

I love writing. For some unknown reason, I always have these crazy or cool ideas on my head.. I always have something to write about. Is it maybe because I think too much? Too much that my head cannot handle 'em anymore and automatically sends brain commands throughout my body which pushes me toward the computer or a notebook and makes that huge sign in my head I WANT TO WRITE? Haha. See? Crazy. Anyway, I'm not complaining about my need to write.. It's just that, I have this problem about consistency. Which really does not come handy in writing, especially in blogging. When you make blogs or blogsites.. you really have to check on it everyday or at least every other day. Am I right? It's not fun when you suddenly abandon your site for like, a week or so. Haaayy.. This inconsistency actually goes with everything that I do. And i despise every moment of fit. I always have great ideas or plans.. or at least I have plans.. but whenever I start to do them, I can't seem to finish what I've started. It's either that, or I don't do them at all. It's sooooo infuriating, I tell you. For example, I make schedules for tomorrow or for the week or even for the whole month.. and then, I start and I successfully accomplished the first 5 to-do things.. and then suddenly, I get to this point where I feel less motivated so I stop. Grabe, I wasted the whoooole schedule thingy diba? The worse part is, the plans were really really good. What's worse than wasting a very good chance of being a better person?

It scares me actually. What if, I'm inconsistent towards my life? You know how each person has his/her goals and dreams.. and of course, there's the path right in between. So, no matter how good my goals and dreams are, I can't accomplish them because of my stupid inconsistency? Dang. Do I need an inspiration? Cos I think I don't. Maybe, I need to be much much more determined and focused on what I'm doing. And, I have to really really want or love what I'm doing.. so that I can enjoy it and, at the same time, know that I need it in my life. Yeah, that's right.. I have to really (times a billion) push myself. Haha. Sigh. Sounds easy when I say it..

So, coming back to the blog thing.. I think this might be one of the challenges I'm going to handle. Through this, I can fight (is that the right term for it?) my inconsistency and my lack of motivation. I WILL WANT NEED to finish this. :) Halleluja!

I hope I didn't sound prophetic or dramatic.. Haha. My sincerest apologies if I did. So this is it for now. More mental blahs next time. Ciao. <3>