The Real Deal

After spending an afternoon with three good friends-- two bestfriends and a former one-- I got back to this kind of thinking which I hid somewhere in my brain. While we were catching up on one another, we had some pretty serious topics which made me remember that side of me. Oh, the talk was soooo good.. tv series, college degrees, future(no kidding), getting PTJs and other stuff. We had our laughtrips, which were as good as the serious conversations. But the heavy ones are the ones that hit me the most..

Here's the thing.. I have loads of super great ideas in my head. I get new ones everyday, and sometimes I improve the old ones which turn out to be way better. What kind of ideas? Ideas of all kinds; cool ideas for my life and usually, for the others' too. For example, my closest 'kada, JERK, and I made this list. The List. It's a list of all the things we want to get, achieve or do together. Some are simple but most of 'em are bigtime, like.. travel around the world or something. Haha, no joke! So there, we have The List right? But then, I get these really fun ideas everyday for The List.. like yesterday, I thought of adding "Watch Disney on Ice" and "Eat Shabu-Shabu". Dude, seriously, fun right? Wah, the thought fills me up with excitement, grabe! Anyway.. and then I suddenly thought of some bigger idea for the four of us.. why not have, a JERK day. Or at least a JERK time. Once a week we have that, and during those hours, we try to accomplish one of the things on The List. For every week, we get to do a different gimmick.. for the sake of The List. O, ha? But of course I knew that there were complications. It was possible yeah, but hard. There are the exams, events and whatever things that will occupy our time; with or without us knowing. Stuff that's out of our hands.. Hay. Edi yun diba..

So much for dreaming e noh?

I got frustrated. 'Cos a I ended up on the same place that I always end up on when I have these plans or ideas. I just realize last year that plans do me no good. I'm a good planner, yeah. But I end up usually not doing things according to the plan. In fact, I like planning as much as I like making ideas. But the thing is, I just can't seem to fulfill them or something. Sometimes I just get too lazy but most of the time.. it gets out of my hands. It doesn't feel goo when you watch your uber fantastic plan fall down in front of you. Seriously, it hurts me sometimes. Why does this happen to me?

There is something wrong. But I don't know or I'm not sure what it is. Lack of motivation? Determination? Inspiration? Support? Or is it the sad sad fact that my ideas or plans are too impossible to handle? Is it? 'Cos.. I don't think they are. Maybe some are out of the ordinary, but not impossible. So? What makes them fail? Or untouched?

I have successful plans and ideas naman but not as much as the Untouchables. Like my 18th in Baguio, that was a great idea ah and the plan, all in order.

I hate this. I hate this problem of mine. I like my ideas and I know I have really good skills on it. Pero why is it being wasted? Sayang talaga eh, when you think of it. Sobrang sayang talaga. PLus, it kills me especially when it comes to planning for my future, let's say college.. tsk. I HAVE GOOD PLANS AND I WANT THEM.. SO BADLY.

I'm not giving up on this.. I just need to clear things up, steam off so that I can see fully every little detail. By doing that I could find out what I lack. Imagine, I get ideas everyday.. grabe. I can't stop them; they just form without me wanting them. Onga noh.. maybe I need to want t hem, as in really really want them. Hmm.. could be.. Try ko nga. ;)

Looks like I need another good conversation plus good coffee. Ü

Will update. Ciao. Ü

HURRY UP and finish the game! [before Christmas break]

Wooooow. After 10 years..

SUPER daming nangyari.. Unfortunately, I didn’t have time to write ‘em down. BUT, as one of my NewYear’s resolutions.. I will, no scratch that, I SHOULD always have time. Ayt? Ayt.

SO. Where do I start? ..

NEW SCHOOL. Yeah, my new school’s A-oooookaaaay. I have more new friends and better old friends. There’s this cool group (wahaha) of friends that (sana) I’m in, well I think I’m in. Hehe. My bestest guy friend introduced me to this group, his ‘kada, which is composed of his FA-mates/Dota-mates. Usually, dalawa lang kaming girls, si Anna Torres and me. Di talaga ako sanay to not call her Ate. Not that she looks older ha, sanay lang ako. Ayun, si Richard (si dimples waha!), si Michael, si Wylz, si Lem, si Cris, tsaka yung iba pa. Usually kasi, nadadagdagan yung group when they bond, and when I say bond I mean DOTA. Hehe. Tapos at times, siguro pag sa classes, nadadagdagan din ng other friends yung group. Puro nga lang sila FA.. kaya kapag majors nila, wengkwengkwengk, I’m out. Wuhuhuhu.. Joke, may iba naman ako friends. So yun, sayaaaaaa nila kasama. As in almost the whole time kasama ko sila. Yey. Ü Sila Ally pala and si Lei, new friends. Actually, kilala ko na sila dati, mga Fas din (kawawa ako noh?) , pero now naguusap na talaga kami. Meron din ako sa Math, si Hiyas.. genius! Haha. Seryoso, ang galing. Pero kaya ko din yun! Wahahaha..

Re-acads naman, okay naman. I’m still in the process of making-up, kasi I really want to have those unos. As in really really badly. Proud ako sa Math ko. I like my Math class, andun pa si Ano. AHA! Hahahaha. ;) Ayun, I’m really focusing more and I’m more determined nren. Whoo, neeerd. Hahaha. Okay lang, learning is fun. ;) Cumlaude na ‘to mehn!

Ulul. Hahaha. Wengk wengk. :))

UP LANTERN PARADE.. AYOOOOOS!! Galing grabe, two thumbs up. Lalo na FA, well halos lahat FA, amaaaaaaazing talaga. Finally, after many years of wanting to go there, ayun na. Dec 2007, hurrah! Went there with my sister, met up with one of my best friends, Chi, met her blockmates and witnessed the magic. :) Medyo na-late kami pero buti nalang we were still able to see many lanterns. Super daming tao, as in sea of people. Lalo na yung part na nandun kami sa may oblation, WHOA! talaga. Wag niyo na tanungin kung san kami nakaposition just to have a good view of those lanterns. Wahehe. Pero it was all worth it, SALUDO talaga. \m/ Tapos after we went to Katips and ate dinner and met up with another best friend of mine, Erin. Chicken bonding.. FullyLoaded. Yahoo! Fun talag ‘cos may moments kasi na nakakahiya, kasi may mga ute guys na dumating tas yun. Tas yung guy pa nila Chi. Wooow. <3 st="on">Sana lang I was able to see the parade during my Kuya’s years there, as in SAYANG talaga. :c Anyway, next year uli! Pero, dapat OKAY na yung cam and early na.. hahahaha.. kasi namaaan..

Yung weekend din na yun may Christmas party ang Kalay and Paskuhan sa Ust; both of which I intended to attend. But, due to the distances and the time, hassle na to go pa. Hindi ko tuloy nabigyan ng Christmas exGift yung ‘baby’ ko sa Kalay. Tsk. Bad santa, bad. Anyway, may next time pa namaaaan..

Scrooge mode ako this Christmas. Kahit na ang daaaaami kong ideas for gifts, wala din eh. Hahaha. Next year nalang ako babawi. Okay lang yun! Time to treat myself more. Ü

Ayun. These are all the events that happened before the Christmas break. During the Christmas break.. well, ibang usapan na yun. ;)

Ciao. Belated Meeeerry Christmas! Ü It’s better late than never right? Ciaohohoho.. Ü

I love you, that's my secret..

***

I didn't ask
They shouldn't have told me
At first I'd laugh, but now
It's sinking in fast
Whatever they've sold me

Well baby I don't want to take advice from fools
I'll just figure everything is cool
Until I hear it from you

It gets hard
The memory's faded
Who gets what they say
It's likely they're just jealous and jaded

Well maybe I don't want to take advice from fools
I'll just figure everything is cool
Until I hear it from you

I can't let it get me off
Or break up my train of thought
As far as I know, nothing's wrong
Until I hear it from you
Still thinking about not living without it
Outside looking in
Til we're talking about it, not stepping around it
Maybe I don't want to take advice from fools
I'll just figure everything is cool

Until I hear it from you...

***

How can I find something, that two can take.. without stumbling as we walk into our future's wake. I'm like a broken record that you can play.. repeating as if it matters everything I wanna say. I'll be alright; as long as it matters, as long as you're here with me now. Forget that time; it's nothing, we touch and see. All this is fine even as it crashes down on me. I'm looking around there's nothing that I could want. More than to tell you there's no more than what we've already got. Forget that our time is almost up.. I'll be alright; as long as it matters, as long as you're here with me now..

What the Tempted Dreamer wants is what the Tempted Dreamer gets. ;)

O ano? Okay na? Haha. Okaaaaay. Ü

At last! After fourteen decades, i finally have the time to catch up in here. Grabe. My poor poor site..

My mind is full and my hands are starving.

After two months of terrific holidays-- walang kasawa-sawang lamunan at bigayan PLUS busog na busog na wallet at abot-langit na ngiti-- I'm back. Yessir. I didn't have internet access for some weeks that's why I couldn't post my blog entries. But, I write whenever I please, kaya late yung mga other entries. I had to update my Fster, Facebook, and Photobucket pa. I still have to renovate my Multiply. Tsk. Anyway, second chances start with a first step. Wahe, anlabo. :))

So, year 2oo7 has already ended. You should have seen how I ended mine. As in super sigaaaaaaaw and taloooooon.. a hurray full of joy. Ü I was eagerly waiting for it to end, 'cos of all the badshits and miseries.. WOOOHOO! talaga. I couldn't wait to start a new year, a fresh new one. Finally, FINALLY wala na. 2oo8 na, bravo. Thanks to Subic and my most wonderful family ever, I ended and started a year with a blast. Oh, oh! I really really want to mention this 'cause this it really was fantastic-- Subic Boardwalk's Firework Display. Super cool! :D There was this wicked purple fireworks that really made me jump and smile like a kid, SERYOSO. Suuuuuper cool. Sayang, I wasn't able to take a video kasi naman KJ yung cam that time eh. Anyway, what a night that was. Haha.














Next year sana I can witness a surrounding fireworks (tama ba?). Basta instead of displaying them all in just one corner, sana 360degrees meron. Tapos puro purple e noh? Hahaha. Sooo me. ;) Hindi, kahit yung surrounding fireworks nalang.. okay na. Okay na okay. :) Haayy.. di naman masama mangarap diba.. wahahaha..

Anyway, I won't let myself be lost in all that popping lights and crackles.. where was I? Uh, oh there, new year. Right. So, resolutions.. umm.. lemme think.. I didn't have time kasi to make some. Hmm.. ah!

• I'll stop my biting my nails
• I'll work out more
• I'll try new sports
  
• i'll sleep early
• and uh.. i'll be nicer to Jorge.

Wahaha!! :)) Nakakatawa naman.. whose resolutions are these ba?? Walang kwenta! As in waaaaaay hilarious ah. :)) Hindi joke lang. Um, the first one I already accomplished--believe it or not. I'm proud of myself now because of this.. well, prouder, I managed to stop nailbiting for two months now. So, nagstart pa pala siya even before the New Year. Pero still, i intended to make it a resolution. BRAVO for me! The second and third ones are still in progress, okay naman. Yata. Haha. The fourth one is... uh.. Bull. Haha! As in ULUL talaga. The earliest I can sleep is at 10pm.. sanay na kasi eh. And may nangyayari na "magic" every night eh, so I'd rather stay up late. Oooohh.. ano ksys yuuun.. Secret. Hah! Pero I won't take it out from my list.. it won't hurt anyway if I don't. Yeah. And tha last one.. haha. Funny yan eh, I can't help being grumoy towards him sometimes 'cause he's usually KSP to the point na nakakaasar na. Weirdoooooo. Wahaha. But we have our fun times, pc games and stuff like that. Yeahboi. Hahaha. What a woooonderful ate.. :))

I think I still have some resolutions which I forgot. I'll type 'em her if I remember. Anywaaaay..

Oho. Something new.. something good. <3>ilangan marami. So, so. It's scary actually, but it's worth it i guess. Hahaha. Grabe, I never saw this coming.. wow.. the complexity of the world.. gazillion passibilites that you won't expect. It's a good thing, that's for sure. But it can be a bad one, if it fails.. Hay.. Oh well. I won't know unless I try right? Heehee. <3>
Hana Kimi. The Bridge Across Forever. Spring Waltz. Legends of the Fall. One. Coffee Prince. FullyLoaded. Gossip Girl. Life. MacArthur. 5OOPeopleYouMeetInHell. GA Ost Songs. Aus Open. Brad Turvey. Nailpolish. <3>

Sige, eto muna. It feels sooooo good to be back here. Haha. Lit is love. Diba Haze? *highfive* Again, I can't apologize if it's somehow messed up, 'cause that's me. That's the way I do things here. Pasensyahan nalang.

I miss you Tempted Dreamer. ;) Okay na? Tsk, kung hindi lang kita mommy eh. Wahe. Wabshu. :D

Ciao. :)